Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Heaven


Heaven as written by a 17 Year Old Boy. 

This is excellent and really gets you thinking about what will happen in Heaven.
17-year-old Brian Moore had only a short time to write something for a class. The subject was what Heaven was like. "I wowed 'em," he later told his father, Bruce. It's a killer. It's the bomb It's the best thing I ever wrote." It also was the last.
Brian's parents had forgotten about the essay when a cousin found it while cleaning out the teenager's locker at Teays Valley High School in Pickaway County.
Brian had been dead only hours, but his parents desperately wanted every piece of his life near them, notes from classmates and teachers, and his homework. Only two months before, he had handwritten the essay about encountering Jesus in a file room full of cards detailing every moment of the teen's life. But it was only after Brian's death that Beth and Bruce Moore realized that their son had described his view of heaven.
It makes such an impact that people want to share it. "You feel like you are there," Mr. Moore said.. Brian Moore died May 27, 1997, the day after Memorial Day. He was driving home from a friend's house when his car went off Bulen-Pierce Road in Pickaway County and struck a utility pole. He emerged from the wreck unharmed but stepped on a downed power line and was electrocuted.
The Moore 's framed a copy of Brian's essay and hung it among the family portraits in the living room. "I think God used him to make a point. I think we were meant to find it and make something out of it," Mrs. Moore said of the essay. She and her husband want to share their son's vision of life after death. "I'm happy for Brian. I know he's in heaven. I know I'll see him.
Here is Brian's essay entitled:
" The Room.."
In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features except for the one wall covered with small index card files. They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endless in either direction, had very different headings.
As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read "Girls I have liked." I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one. And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was. This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn't match. A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching.
A file named "Friends" was next to one marked "Friends I have betrayed." The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird. "Books I Have Read," "Lies I Have Told," "Comfort I have Given," "Jokes I Have Laughed at."
Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: "Things I've yelled at my brothers." Others I couldn't laugh at: "Things I Have Done in My Anger", "Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents." I never ceased to be surprised by the contents Often there were many more cards than expected. Sometimes fewer than I hoped. I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived.
Could it be possible that I had the time in my years to fill each of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.
When I pulled out the file marked "TV Shows I have watched," I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of shows but more by the vast time I knew that file represented.
When I came to a file marked "Lustful Thoughts," I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size, and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed content. I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded. An almost animal rage broke on me.
One thought dominated my mind: No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!" In insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards...
But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it. Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh
And then I saw it. The title bore "People I Have Shared the Gospel With." The handle was brighter than those around it, newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand.
And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that they hurt. They started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room.. I must lock it up and hide the key. But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him.
No, please not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus. I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own. He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes.
Why did He have to read every one? Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room.. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me.
Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files.. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card. "No!" I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was "No, no," as I pulled the card from Him... His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, and so alive.
The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood. He gently took the card back He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side. He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, "It is finished."
I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written.
"For God so loved the world that He gave His only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life." John 3:16

I got this email from a friend of mine, and it really makes me think. It also makes me cry. It makes me cry because somewhere, I have a room like that. A room where I one day will weep with the Savior while he signs my cards. I am thankful for my Savior. He loves me for who I am. He knows my strengths and my weaknesses. He helps me through the trying times. He is the one I can turn to for peace. I love him so much. I dedicate this post to him. I dedicate it to all those that I love that are now in heaven. 

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Must Have Done Something Right

Who knew how fun life could be? I certainly didn't know it could be this fun. It could be me, but I like to think my friends are changing my life for the better. It used to be that I would hang out occasionally.. After practice I would go home, After games I would go home. But little did I know, you CAN hang out after such things. Weird huh? Friday and Saturdays were the days that I would just chill at home. But being with friends? It's a party!! ( I love my home.. but it's good to get out. ) I'm on cloud nine at this part of my life, and I just don't want it to end. Hopefully it will not. ( I'm not positive on the correctiveness of wont/won't so I wrote it out.) Life is just absolutely positively awesome. The only thing that could make this better? World Peace. I'm sorry, I had to throw that in there. But the meaning behind this whole post? Don't take for granted what you have. Cherish the moments that you have with your buddies. Don't treat your buddies wrong, they make life awesome. Look deep for someone who might need you. Some people are good at hiding the fact that they need a friend. Be the one who discovers that secret, and then fix it. 
See. Aren't they awesome? I'm the black one with the great smile, and then they are all just gathered around me. If you haven't met them, be jealous, they are all super cool. 
K well have a nice week. I for one will have a week that will be so enjoyable, cause Lax season starts!!! :)
Later.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Smile Like You Mean It

Friends. They make life a party. Take today for instance. 
First off... All my classes are pretty insane. Insane as in jam packed with my way awesome friends. 
Secondly.. Lacrosse. Enough said. But I will elaborate. 
Conditioning is probably the best thing ever. I mean I'm working on my physique and hanging with my pals. Yeah it's pretty pro. 
So Nekel (The coolest, most white person I have ever met ;) ) and I (more so her) decided to go to Bowmans and party. Right now I bet you're thinking "Bowmans? How lame can these teenagers get??" If you are thinking this... you obviously have never been to Bowmans. It is the heart of K-town. 
Quick side trip. While I was headin' over to the wonderful supermarket, I passed a cop. Yeah, I was scared. For some reason I'm just afraid they will pull me over.. So I drove super cautiously. And then... Some chick almost pulled a left turn in front of me while I was going 40. Good thing she stopped, or it would have been traumatic. 
So we pick out our chocolate milk. We need protein, we just worked out. And we went to our favorite cashier. Kelsey!! We chatted with her, because we love her. And then continued on to our party. In Nekel's sexy mini van. Chips, chocolate milk, and two awesome people. Continuously creeping on those that parked next to her. 
Miraculously, I finished all my homework by 8. I know, that is so awesome!!
There is a slight downer to this day. Curtis Knight posted an outrageous thing on Facebook. He wrote that the girls lacrosse team is a joke, and then proceeded to laugh. It's okay, I never take him seriously :) 
Well.. I'm done. Hope you all enjoyed this. ( Sorry it's like a diary.. but today was just so awesome. )  

Monday, January 10, 2011

And So It Goes

So I finally decided to get around to my New Year's Resolutions. I wanted to wait and think it over before I set anything in stone. Wanted to wait and see what I really needed. So here it goes...

  • Focus more on school. Not a lot though. I mean not to brag or anything but I've been lucky to have this gift where I can pass tests without studying. Studying just seems to psych me out. And recently a huge chunk of my time that was spent elsewhere has just abandoned me, and studying is the next best thing.
  • Be better to those around me. More accurately be true. Stick to what I say. Do better to help those that have helped me. Give back.
  • Clean my room more. (and keep it clean.)
  • Be Prepared. (Yes, I did just steal from the Boy Scouts.)
  • Say Hi to people. Yes, I admit it. In the hall I rarely say hi to people. It's that fear we all have. The fear that they wont a) see you, therefore you look foolish. Or b) they will ignore you, and again, you look foolish.
  • Be True. To others, but more importantly myself.
  • Don't give up, no matter how hard the going is and how much I can justify it.
  • Look for the lonely and make them not lonely.
  • Stop listening to things that do not follow my standards and get rid of those things that do not follow said standards.
  • Be accepting that I will fail in life.
  • After I fail, get back up and show life what I can do.
Well hopefully I can follow a few of these. I hope you all have a great week. Mine will be hectic and scary. 
Over and out.

Monday, January 3, 2011

Club Can't Handle Me

Or maybe I can't handle the club. I'm not speaking literally here, can you see me at a club? (Keep your answers to yourself) What I meant was that just simple things that people do seem to bug me to the point that I just freak out. Usually it's to myself... Not out in public. Here is my list of things that bug me to no extent....

  • People talking to me while I read. "Oh man I want to talk to you... let me show you by reading my book." Seriously? Common Sense. Oh and this applies while watching tv also. 
  • People talking to me when a teacher is lecturing. No, I am not a teachers pet. It just that every time I talk back to said kid, the teacher looks at me. Bad timing? Oh yeah.
  • Slow People. Not learning wise. But walking. Times when I am either a) Hurrying to class, b) Hurrying to the car for lunch (That time flies), c) Hurrying to the car for home. I know you all want to walk slow, hold your soul mates hand ( I know right?), stop and make out ( If I see this again.. I might scream), and stop. right in the middle of the hall. People. Common sense is a necessity!!
  • People that ignore you for no reason. Like I'm serious. But hey, if you don't want to talk, then fine. We won't. But I want to. I'm naturally a chatter. (It depends though)
  • If I'm mad.. don't suck up to me. Or keep talking to me. Just LEAVE. ME. ALONE!
  • People that assume you don't want to do something with them. Thanks. It's okay. I feel loved. (Do you sense that that sentence is dripping with sarcasm)
  • People that assume they know everything. About everything. Not one thing. BUT EVERYTHING!! 
Hmm.. when I was thinking earlier... there were more. But as I got thinking, I decided to be less harsh. The most important ones made it here though. On the flip side. People make me happy. Whether it be by talking to me out of the blue :), or just being there for me. 
Time for me spiffy up my room and finish my book? You betcha :) Hope you don't think I am some rude person. If you do.. Well that is just too bad. 
Autobot, roll out.

Friday, December 17, 2010

Holiday

Finally. 
School is gone for 2 weeks.
I can finally get some MUCH needed sleep. I am suffering from sleep deprivation. 11:30 each night is sooo not good for me. I regret it every morning, when I reset my alarm from 6:30 to 6:40. Those ten minutes save me. But every weekend it catches up to me. Like now... It's only 8, and I'm fighting to stay awake. 
This week I.....
*Took the HARDEST science test ever.. Who needs to know the origin, insertion, action, and location of 44 muscles? Me? Oh right...bombed that test.
*ACED my math test. I used to hate math. Now, I love it.
*Played wallball.. 
*Attempted to play Wizards chess.. Using myself and my sister as pawns
*Went to Temple Square and saw the lights!! :)
*Will wake up and watch cartoons with Taly boy!!
yeah that's a really shortened version. But hey, those are what I can think of now. 
Christmas is NEXT WEEK!!! WOOHOOO!!!!
By the way.. Y'all should watch BYU Divine Comedy's videos... They rock!!


Sunday, December 5, 2010

You'll Always Be My Best Friends

I love holidays. The biggest reason? I get to spend time with my family. My family includes; Mom, Dad, Spencer, Ashley, Jacque, Tyler, Carissa, and now Curtis and Talon. Let's start out with an introduction of everyone.
Mom- Probably the craftiest person I know. Some awesome memories are coming home from school and her having cookies/brownies for us to eat. My favorite thing is when she and Rissa get into an argument.. It can be pretty funny. 
Dad-Oh Dad... He's gone a lot with work and church stuff.. but when he's home, he's a party animal. Okay, not all the time. But I can remember times when he'd be making breakfast and would just randomly burst into song and dance. Yup, that's my Dad :D
Spencer- Big brother. Always has the coolest toys. When he moved it made me so sad because I never got the chance to go on a food run for him.. and I miss him.  My favorite memories are; playing Xbox with him, him trying to get us to do dishes for him for money ( I never wanted to...), and he always gave us his leftover fries and chicken nuggets. 
Ashley-The eat-and-run sister. Okay not really, but we like to tease her about that. She is also crafty. ( We are a crafty family..) I loved playing in her dance dresses!! (Okay, I still do...) And she has the cutest little boy ever!!
Jacque- My twin. Seriously, I look like her and sound like her. It was cool at first, but now it's gotten to the point where I'm like "People.. I am Michaela" haha jk it's really not bad, but answering the phone is a pain. We share a lot of stories :)
Tyler-Hmm... Annoying? Haha. He got better after being gone two years. Those two years were reallllly long. Don't worry, I still have one more year before the my other "brother" Tyler comes home. His friend acts like he lives here... Yeah not all that fun ;)
Carissa- Rissa Roo!! We are pretty tight. Maybe it's the fact that we are only 18 months apart? But we look like we are from completely different families. Since we both don't have any friends we play together a lot. (Just kidding, we both have friends, most of which are the same)
Curtis and Talon- Coolest Brother-in-law! Took me and Rissa for a ride in his Jeep one time, probably the coolest thing EVER! Talon is the cutest little nephew! He is getting SO big!! Taking care of him over the summer was awesome and now that I don't get to see him everyday, it makes me a little sad. 
Well that's my family in a nutshell. Since Spencer and Ashley are gone, it just doesn't seem the same. That's why I like holidays, cause then it can be just a little like the good ol' days. We may seem quiet to some people.. but when we get together it can get pretty loud. We have had some awesome times, from Capri-Sun wars, to awesome camping trips, to Apples to Apples games where everyone has that one card, and just chilling in our backyard like white trash.